She trembled, and quaked
I held her back until it ached
We both knew our fate
The nights before they felt so fake
It won't take too long
Blow the candles out watch me shake
The lights turn back on
The darkness here is too opaque
I can't help but think
I've kissed like this before with hate
Come closer once more
It's time to close that heavy door
The Earth didn't break
Take my hand in yours and let’s escape
Lately I've been feeling like I've finally managed to break free from the image and expectations other people have of me. Not that these mattered to me too much on a personal level, I have my people and I am happy in life. But there's something to be said about being seen and understood by someone. The gears in my head are working better, clearer and inspiration seems to spring up around every corner.
Passion is probably my biggest drive in life. If I feel it, I'll act on it. If I want something passionately, I'll fight for it... And giving up does not appear to be in my DNA. There's been a big shift in my writing this past year, I'm finally finding my voice, my drive, breaking free from previous styles and discovering new ways to link words together.
A big part of this is owed to Savages by Don Winslow. If you haven't read it, I can't recommend it enough. The style is modern, witty and fast, it read like the thoughts in my mind run... Leaping from chapter to chapter ferociously telling the tale of love and passion and friendship. Maybe it spoke to me so much because the voice was so like mine or because it made me feel less bound by the rules of literature. Finally a novel that mixed prose styles and screen writing... And my mixing of poetry and prose suddenly felt less off, less out of place. And I thought maybe I can work more freely with style... There really is something about finding a like mind, a fellow passenger on this earth taking his journey to death, who describes and feels in a way that you do.
So, fired up by this, with his latest novel on my kindle (I finally gave in and got some electronic books, they do not have the same feel to them at all) I have jumped head first into an experimental novel, for NaNoWriMo2015... (National novel writing month) I have a story, a title and a freedom of style to spur me on... Just need to spit out those 50,000 words before the end of November and bring the story to life... Wish me luck!
You can find me on the nano sight as Karina Lawrence-Davies and the novel's title is February. A small blurb and an extract of the novel are up there too for those of you curious to find out more!